wishing for an end

everyone is so excited of going to singapore... not me though
i got so much things on my hand to worry right now
especially my english presentation
only god knows how much it's occupying my mind night and day
my stubborn lecturer does not wan to change date
which forces me to do a live webcam presentation if i want to get my 5 marks or
nothing at all. yep, fat zero.
and she set the time where i'm supposed to be at universal studio.
great
now i'm stuck between getting my money's worth at universal studio or
getting my coursework marks.
so far, what i planned is to run out from the universal studio for 2 hours to get
wifi connection at my hotel.
damn. i'm wasting my 2 hours money. or even more.
so great.

next is my economic presentation
which is after my singapore trip.
and the great thing about is,
i have to make sure my presentation stand out
with entertainment value
just because i pleaded my econ lecturer to change
my date of presentation, which again,
falls on this friday, the day i'm going to singapore!

not only that, my computer assignment is giving me headaches too
deadline is next friday, i havent do anything yet
need powerpoint presentation and a report too
just so great

i got 3 crucial things on my mind
its a no wonder i kept dreaming funny things
poor brain, too much stress
i would be so looking forward to christmas night where
everything will be over

a prison of memories

click ALL
click DELETE

gone are all my old love letters
such a contrast between
our first few letters
and the final ones

felt a pang in my heart
a tiny remorse feeling
but not enough to bring
back my sorrowful tears
yet it still hurts
a little

a selfish decision and he's gone.
chose to left him and follow my intuitive.
i didnt mean to hurt him.
the excitement of going there
made me hopped onto the train
i didnt think that i would hurt him that way
i left him feeling used
though it's never my intention at all
i was insensitive like always

i returned
after a wave of guilt washed over me
we hugged and made up
but the feeling of fear never left me
this is not the first time
i sparked his anger

keeping quiet is all i can do
until his flame dies

and yet again i'm in new relationship
seems like i cant keep out of them
am i that desperate
am i that needy
for someone to love
and be loved?
is there any reason to be in relationship?

he put me together when i'm in shatters
he sewed my heart when i'm in tatters
he stood by me when i'm in total shambles
all in all, he's always there when i trembles

as fate would have it,
i was not attracted by his looks
but to his inner person
i was neither desperate nor needy
but i felt an overwhelming love
from the base of his heart

is there any reason?
surely there's a lot of reasons
but none hold as strong as love

the day i set my eyes on you,
i didnt think i would fall over you
you told me that i once told you
that i would never like you
looks like i was wrong
funny how could love blossomed
from strangers to mere acquaintance
from acquaintance to friend
closer and closer each day
until somehow i didnt realise
that we were that close
to fall for each other

foamy days

foamy days are here again
something soft and pink
fluffy and bubbly
is that called love?

it has been one month since the break up.. or was it longer than that? wonder why am i still thinking of him sometimes. they will never really go away from our hearts. sometimes, i wish i can be with him once more. but such things never can happen. reality check, it's cruel and i hate it.

Fusion of Colors

one night

cannot sleep...
looking out of the window..
it's raining,
there's thunder,
but i cant feel it
i'm numb
i'm speechless
indifference

i want to go out
spread my hands out wide
greet the rain with my face
and my smile
that once lighted up
someone's life
but not anymore

smiling alone in the room
with soft music background
am i in an acceptance phase?
do i really care anymore?

and i will love you
until forever
as the music goes
do i really need
what human calls LOVE?

deprived of it,
i had something else
its what called FRIENDSHIP
though i'm not sure
what's the extend of friendship

he's treating me real nice
being there when i needed someone the most
being there when i'm so lonely and depressed
being there by just being there

Mourning

there will be a personal mourning for the beloved husband of Syncora;
father of 2 cats; Bunkface Jr 1 and Bunkface Jr 2,
whom had passed away peacefully 2 months ago.
sorry for the delay of the mourning ceremony
coz the widow had been living under an illusion
all this while.

it's time to move on.
We'll all pray for a peaceful departure of a very loving man.
Rest in peace.

a simple love story
how easily it destroys an innocent smile of a girl
how easily it breaks a heart into pieces
leaving a phantom of memory behind
it will never be the same after that
for the life of that girl
each memories pierce through the mind
rewinding themselves at times not needed

oh why do you leave me unforgotten memories?
oh why do you leave me unhealed scars?

heart

because i love you, i let you go
because i love you, i step aside
because i love you, i cry alone
because i love you, i gave you my heart

the aftermath

yesterday you said you wanted a separate life,
i asked if that means you want a break up,
you said yeah, it will be better for both of us.

at that moment, i froze in the mid air,
refusing to believe that this was the guy i loved so much
refusing to accept the fact that you wanted to break up
everything else doesnt matter anymore

tears came rolling down, i was delusional,
depressed and hurt
dont you know that i cried so frequently every night
thinking of you
i think i'm having a depression
dont you just care anymore?

ironically enough, i enjoyed reading
your yesterday's messages compared to the others
that was the most heart to heart conversation
i ever have with you since we got separated
by distance
and now, looks like you separated yourself
from me altogether

the thought of suicide came back haunting me
i never got out from my depression i suppose
why must you do this to me?
you know i was not a very strong person
i break down easily
i got upset, i got mad,
but most of all, i got hurt

because of you, i got a depression
if my depression got worse due to no treatment
it would be because of you my dear

another emotional wreck
that's what i turned into
i feel more and more abandoned each day
the relationship i have does not bring
any meaning to me.
with a maximum of 5 messages per day,
maximum of 1 call per 2 weeks
how can i call that a relationship?

too little communications
too shallow conversations
what has drifted us apart?

i do not feel happy at all
he pushes me out of his life
yet i cant bear to be apart from him
at his mercy i beg
please pay attention to me
but again i was ignored

what am i to you?

i continue talking to a wall
continue to message him
i tried not to care anymore
but deep inside me,
there's a tiny flicker of hope
that he will reply me
like how he used to
where we so close
even at the distance

it felt just like a dream
everytime i thought of our memories
when we enjoy each other's presence
when we hiked up the hill
when we took a walk at the garden
when we eat at sushi bar
when we met at your house
there is so much to cherish
have you forgotten them all?

you said you like my smile the most
but i havent been smiling for a long time
tears roll down whenever i thought of you
will you ever make me smile again dear?

my relationship is in rocks :(
we are drifting apart
further and further from each other

some part of me wanted to let it go
but the other part wanted all those happy memories
to happen again in the near future

i just couldnt forget how nice he can be
compared to now, he's nothing more than an answering machine

so often his messages to me consist of one word
yea, okay, orgh....
when my messages is one page long

so often i checked his status in facebook
to be disappointed that he replied other's status
and not mine a bit

so often i tried calling him
but he's always seem to be busy
that i feel bad for taking his time

so often i wanted to be comforted by him
to be reassured that everything's fine
but somehow i feel abandoned

sometimes you are just so insensitive,
i wonder if you really care about me
do you care to know how frustrated i felt?
when you did not reply my messages
when you did not pick up my calls?

i really want back our old times
when we were so close to each other
where nothing else matters
if you are just beside me
memories by memories
i wonder if you still remember them?

i looked at my own picture,
imagining if i'm dead,
would anybody looked at the same picture as detailed as me?

caressing my cold face,
silver pearls dropping to my cheeks,
missing my smile and laughter
would they do that to me?

how does a suicide teenager felt?
lying in her own coffin
looking at those people come and go
more than often those who shook their heads
whispering what a tradegy
she's been so young
full of promises
why did she take her own life?

would she have been regretted her decision?
her decision that makes her cut the contact
with people around her?

lying in the coffin,
maybe she did felt a pang in her heart
maybe she longed for those warmness
maybe she didnt like the coldness surrounding her
maybe she didnt want people crying around her

she wanted to get up
and console her close ones
but, rules of death held her back
closing her eyes in the soothing mantra
is all she could do
in hope for a better life next time

alone

face the fact: i always have different ideas with my mom

we fought in msn, it's actually cold war so now i'm not contacting her
that basically leaves me alone here, just like anak derhaka
i was just trying to introduce the idea of a boyfriend but like usual,
her mind closed up, bla bla bla

alone
it's nothing new
i have always been alone
although not physically but mentally
i never share things or problems with my family
cox i know they can never accept my ideas

brought up with a steel grit
i never really open up to my family
doing so would means giving them space to condemn me
maybe they din realise that i'm just
another teenager exploring new horizon

looking at people who call so often to their family,
i wonder what they have to talk about
everytime i try to talk to my mom,
there are always things that she needs to "advise"
in the end, i got fed up and slowly i close up
and i learnt to keep my mouth shut

Missing You

melancholy feels within me.
you rarely call nowadays
we seldom message each other
there are times i felt ignored
you were just so busy

i'd give my all
to have just one moment with you
i'd risk my life
to feel you next to me
cox i cant go on
living in doubt
whether am i still in your heart

it doesnt feel real anymore
those times we spent together
where we hug and touch
laugh and smile together
all seems like a dream now

maybe you didnt realise
how lonely am i here
sometimes it just feels so good
to cry alone in the room
but what i want more is a
shoulder to cry on

crying alone at night
has become a norm for me
sometimes i wonder why those tears fall
had i lost my mind?

never had a dream come true

history repeats itself. the last time it was the singapore polytechnic scholarship. and now it's jpa scholarship. as it turns out, i'm not one of the few lucky ones. and because of this, i become the object of scorn and distaste from my mum. everything i did is wrong wrong wrong.

why shit happens.

i hate my life part 1

oh well, it's clear that i'm not gonna get the damn scholarship from JPA. this sucks my life at home right now. mum's been giving me "the look" each time she heard someone else's smart little kid got the scholarship, blaming it on me that i chose Accounts course instead of the medicine/pharmacy she wanted. she wanted me to pursue in medicine/pharmacy or any science related, instead her stubborn daughter chose Accounts. and also telling me that i will regret one day for not taking up science subject.

wats wrong with accounts subject?? dont we need accountants at all?? is science subject tat high and mighty?

always at different ideas with my mum, one thing that she despise is having boyfriends at young age (i'm eighteen by the way).. as for me, i think having relationships is okay as long as you can handle it, without affecting your studies. all this while, i've been sneaking in and out from relationship, and my studies is still as tip top as before, or maybe my mum didnt think my results are good enough. oh well, nothing is good enough for her anyway.

accept it, i'm a product of failure.

OH MY GOD!!!
i was OMG-ing everywhere each time i looked at the little spiders lurking around the corner near my bed in my new home. yeah... here i am, in a little unknown town of Changlun.. far far away from my dear bunkface.

Oh my, the first few days are TERRIBLE!! i was really really homesick (reality: i missed my bunkface more than my home)

really cried for a few nights.. and when bunkface called me, i cried even more :(
i realised i was pampered by bunkface too much and now i cant live far away from him. it just felt so lost and alone. with all the chinese friends speaking mandarin, i got no one to talk with like my old friends. lone ranger i am.

orientation week is a torture. if you survived it, congrats :)

why was it a torture? we were given barely enough time to change and eat, and the best thing of all: my room is located at the highest floor, 3rd floor.. and poor me have to climb all the way up and down each time i want to get to my room. it doesnt help when the distance to all the places are like so far! about half km or slightly more if u consider the amount of stairs i have to climb.

but, like what i told you, if you survived the first week, the following week will be quite a breeze. i spent my time picking up spiders, webs, dust, etc. and i went exploring my block.. discovered the washing machine (finally!! ), a cyber cafe, dobby, nothing much.

and the day gets on better :) although bunkface is not with me technicallt, but he is in my heart and soul :) he will call me every night and that's the best time we can talk. another 5 more years before i can be that close to him like last time..

really missed those times we had together.. there's memory of us everywhere we go in taiping.. the hills, the lake garden, the swimming pool, all those restaurants high and low, and most important of all, the daily morning visits to his house :) thinking of these make me wanna cry.. ii shall treasure those bittersweet memories.

linking life with bunkface,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

it feels like today's the last time i will be ever that close to him. i drove to his house like usual, feels like i'm really getting used to this daily morning routine :)

and today starts off as usual.. reach his house, call out to his brother, ask the same question: ur bro wake up d ah? he wont answer, but run up straight to his room.. i will cheekily follow him behind to catch his bro(bunkface)sleeping...

wait, that's where today it makes a difference..

bunkface appeared at his room freshly out from the bathroom XD
with only a towel clad around his waist

my first instinct: SHOCKED
he smiled and ask why today i come wan?

LOL.. i dunno wat to do.. so i tell him to go put on clothes first.. haha

and now when i think back, i should have just pulled off the towel XD

chan says:
really ?

I say:
hahahahah
yea
sleeping lk pig XD

let me rewind wat happen in ur room today
i peeked into ur room
saw a figure in red sleeping in bed
facing the window
hidden under the blanket
kinda sexy
if take out the shirt n the blanket

den the figure turn over to his back
rub rub his eyes
for quite a long time

how cute
hahaha

i know you treat me nice, but sometimes, when you got problems, you prefer to shut yourself off in your own world. i can only watch you helplessly from outside. i wanted to comfort you, but you pushed me aside. you only want to share your happiness but not your sadness or anger.

to be only there with you when you are in the right mood? that's not what i want.

linking negative thoughts to yourself only,
ONE OF THE FEW THINGS I DISCOVERED ABOUT YOU.

best date ever^^

we were taking shelter at the china bridge, and it was raining really heavily. it felt like standing at the deck of a ship during a storm, with splashes of rain water hitting us like little bullets. drenched, i just snuggle up closer to him trying to steal his warmth. such an angelic bliss, watching the rain drops onto the lake, perfect setting for a romantic movie.

when the rain subsides, we made our journey back to the hotel. splash splash splash.. my beautiful heels spoiled. splodge splodge splodge, into the mud they goes. instant decision to take off my heels and walk barefooted in the mud. first time walking barefooted in my date, how unladylike :D

linking rain with fun,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

everytime when we say want to go jogging, we end up resting our butt at one spot. thanks to me :D
but i really do prefer to be as close as possible to him rather than "jog" behind him (usually few metres left behind > <).. sitting at one spot, i would lean against him, looking up at the clear blue sky above (or cloudy) and the lush green scenery at the background. my heart at peace :)

consider this: even if i were to jog with him, usually i'll tayar pancit after 22m (figure given by him).. haha~

linking exercise with love,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

feeling really sick tat time, i dialed the number that i knew so well..
"hello? could you come and pick me now? i feel like eating.... got a flu here..."
and the next moment, a big black car glided past the hotel.. yea^^ my bunk face to the rescue~

bye frens^^ after jux an hour of working, i punched my card out. instantly i plopped into the car seat. "Hi uncle^^" to the big mr chan.. (in the heart: hi dear, to the younger mr chan) the big mr chan dropped us at the gate cafe.

and i ordered a lot of food..
1.mushroom soup with garlic bread
2.spaghetti
3.capuchinno

he jux ordered..
1. potato
2. big burger
3. ice lemon tea

basically my meal costs more than his, but he paid the bill (like usual, most of the time), and no questions asked :)

after eating, got an hour left, we walked under the gentle rain to a PC Fair. it was a nice walk, but i was wearing my ciplak high heels = = and i was jumping over the puddles of water there and here to avoid getting my heels spoiled again, how unladylike XD

and then we reached the destination, and we finished walking around the fair in 5 minutes. every step we took, people crammed brochures into our arms. colorful brochures~ (he took all those home to be as 'lapik' for his rubbish bins i think)

oh ya, his mum gave me an alice in the wonderland shirt^^ Original from disney~ imported~ (i hope his mum is trying to foster relationship with me.. hehe)

well, in the end of the day, my flu was still there.. holding tissue to my nose all day long XD uncomfortable but worth every moments with bunk face~

linking love with genuine care,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

cat episode

he knows i like cats. so he got another one from ipoh for me. now i have 2 cute cats. with no reproductive organs apparently. haha XD. poor cats cant do what they like to do at the roadside.

so one night, i put them in that kitten making position and snapped a pic of it. dont give me that stare. this is certainly NOT a commercial animal pornography. because of publicity reasons, i would not upload the pic here.

so on day, i showed him that pic and looked at his face for any reactions.

BLANK.

i asked him, you know wats this?

yea, biology chap 4. (with a smile)

THANK GOD he noes wat his 2 cats trying to do. i was actually amazed that he knows.. LOL. haha.. i like his smile. A LOT.

linking his smile and his spontaneous nature,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

HAPPY ENVIRONMENT (topic for my jpa interview)

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
wei
apa happy environment?

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
LOL
seriously

Miao says:
haha
mmg pun my topic happy environment

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
but i nvr heard HAPPY ENVIRONMENT
b4

Miao says:
YEA!!!!!!
we were all shock

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
super keng
lol

Miao says:
the boy next to me so funny his face
he was lk HUH??? aloud

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
LOLOLOLOL

Miao says:
cox he's the one who hav to ans first
tat time i still dreaming
i tot d question was specially for him oni

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
dey din gif u time 2 think?
i tot 2 mins or sumthg

Miao says:
not reali
ours was super spontan
its not even a group discussion

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
i can c
amazing

Miao says:
wat can discuss abt HAPPY ENVIRONMENT?

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
true
XD

Miao says:
weird topic
compared to others more mature topic

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
real sudden le

Miao says:
YA
all tat guy's fault
talking abt being comfortable in starbucks

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
apa ini
dun blame ppl

Miao says:
mmg pun la!

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
starbucks = happy meh?
i dun think so
den apa lu crap?
mcd?

Miao says:
sumthg abt m'sians living happily in racial unity
shudnt hav say tat
den they ask politicians vv happy meh?

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
lol
den u say yea?
politician alll bathin in money
not happie meh?
eik
u din say ur happie wen wif ur bunk face

Miao says:
ya hor
vv happy environment :)

food = love

sometimes i do stare at him eating his food. not staring intensely but yet noticeable enough. i find it funny at how he chews his food with the food half outside and half inside his mouth, especially chicken, when he tries to tear the meat free. XD. the food will just stick there, on his lips with the spoon or fork as support.

and then he would notice me staring. by the time i turn away, it's always too late.. haha.. he would ask me, "wan eat?", indicating the whatever piece of food stuck in his fork or spoon. at this point, i would usually smile and say NO. or maybe sometimes i'll just take the food, depending on my mood that time.

and then he would notice me looking at other food around. (actually i'm just staring dreamingly at nowhere, or trying to spot his reflection somewhere else where i don't have to directly stare at him) "you want you order-lah," that would be his usual reply.. and again i would say NO while smiling.

linking food with happiness and love,
One of the million things i love about him.

instant emotion

his girl? who's that, i wondered. shouldnt be any of my business anyway. but that thought still lingers in my mind.

wonder what the future holds for us. probably we will just forget each other in a few years time. or not.

oh well~ not that it matters much.

little heart's woes

i thought i would be happy if i receive a scholarship to study in singapore.

turns out not.

mum made a big fuss of it until i was just so FED UP..

she said she wont force me to choose, but right from the beginning i can feel that she already opted for singapore. oh well~

if u asked me the question much much earlier, i wouldnt have think twice and straight go to singapore. but then again, little tiny love things now held me aback =( certainly i do not mind not going to singapore but my mum seems SO enthusiastic about it, giving speeches to me how good how good the nanyang is compared to local.. blah blah blah..

but little heart says going to singapore would means letting go of my own personal unapproved interest. my dear bunk face? *cries*

i've really grown fond of him after about 3 months knowing him. it's just so hard to let go.. if i have been watching a drama of a girl in my situation, normally i'll laugh at her and wondered why does she even have to consider, heck, just straight go singapore if you have the opportunity!
but reality proves harder. little heart keep tugging at the strings between us.

asking myself, do i really want to go?

NO.

but is there any choice?

YES. but mum likes her daughter to graduate from a singapore university.

so what happens next?

*tear drops*

cat episode

my boyfriend just gave me cute white cat. the first question that popped into my mind is whether it's a male or female.

so i asked him. he said dunno.

i told him there's no organ to determine the gender. and so he laughed and replied is that how he should look when choosing soft toys next time: *he demonstrated this by turning the cat upside down and looking at where the organ should be*

LOL

one of the million things i love about him.

walking on the broken path under the rain,
she looked up to the misty sky above.
where dark clouds loomed high and mighty.

sad and crying, she let go of her umbrella,
instantly the rain hit her hard on her face,
accusing her of something that she regretted.

clutching onto a tattered piece of red paper,
she squinted at those words that
she had copied and written from somewhere.
those had truthfully came from her heart,
but somehow lay forgotten somewhere
in the tangles of time and memories.

under the rain,
her flimsy writing getting blurred.
a puff of wind blew the pieces of paper,
from her palm to where the wind will go

has it meant to end like this?
love where once ruled the heart gone with the wind
passion that was not completely ignited but put out
just before it begun

lifting her umbrella from the ground,
she turned back to where she belongs,
leaving those papers of memories behind,
maybe someday she will search for it
if nobody throws them away.

i dont know how hurt were you,
i dont know if it really matters,
i dont know if you still care,
you chose to bear a wall of silence.

morning rambles

he said he did not feel anything knowing about my relationship; not his business~

either he's lying or i'm really wrong about the whole thing.

i thought he had some feelings for me, but seems like it was just me thinking that way. how embarassing...

i still remember, there's this one day where he actuali takes me as his girlfren, and the great thing about it that it lasted only for a mere 24 hours. ya, i was dumped in a 1 day record. that reali pissed me off. check. and again, how embarassing.. dun u ever dare to ask for my hand again!!

on the other hand, maybe he didnt mean it tat way, and only a naive girl like me wud assume that he wans me to be his girlfren.. how embarassing again.. this whole thing is so embarassing..

check my heart. it's not broken, still intact and beating normally.
check my hand. it's in someone else's hand, warm with love.
check my eye. it's looking in someone else's face, shining with happiness.
check my lips. it's curving upwards as it greets someone else.
check my teeth. it's showing off their whiteness as laughter comes.
check my brain. i'm thinking about my dear. =)

my bunk face

paradise perfect!! i leaned against his body, sniffing his air of cologne? deodorant? i'm not so sure but it smells like him ;)
my hand in his hand, a bit damp but i'm not complaining, at least i can be sure it's his hand i'm holding onto when i close my eyes.
and wen i stand next to him, i am horribly shocked that i jux reached a little over his shoulders! i'm tat short??!! cool man, i like his height. if it's my fate to marry him, my kids will be super tall and slim like their dad. something to be happy about :)

he likes car, ya, he reads top gear, something i wudnt even dream of opening the magazine; and often he showed me any expensive cars tat glided in front of the hotel and named them, and seriously i cant catch up on what's he saying.. though the topic kinda bores me, but i like listening to his voice as he explains about that particular car

next to cars, he likes music.. trance / disco music to be exact.. not my type but i'm fine wif it.. at least he noes some other music lk classical ones, or some famous composers, i remembered i was awed that he can name a few piano composers that i fancy.

a bunk face by nature, tat's my dear. wen he smiles, his perfect row of white teeth shows. he jux nid to improve on his face complexion but tat's not my priority, kinda embarassing if ur male partner's face is smoother den urs. haha~ i can realli blog whole day about him but let's keep those lovely thoughts for another day. i got a lady gaga video downloaded waiting for me to watch :)

random thoughts

it's been so long since i really ponder on my thoughts.. kinda random nowadays, with mostly focused onto my dear bunkface :) had a share of happy n funny times.. wonder if it will really last till we grown up? honestly i dont reali think it will, a sad hard reality.

it was days ago since i last discovered that my old crush is in a relationship. shocked i was, i kept clicking the computer screen to see which girl that had captured my old crush's heart. curiosity is more than jealousy, ya, felt a little jealous actuali, cant explain why, maybe a part of our memories still stuck somewhr in me. i tried hard pushing the thoughts away, so i called my best fren.. she reminded me that i got someone else now, ya, that made me smiling back.. how cute my dear is :)

i owis thought, if old crush dinna go to any camps, who wud i end up wif? hav to remind myself that it doesnt matter now.. coz i got my dear bunk face; and it wudnt hav been fair for him if i kept thinkin back my old crush.. but still, it's hard to stop those thoughts from straying.. were close once, but now drifting apart.. do i miss him? cant deny tat fact completely, but still, i missed my dear jake more :) at least he tries to make me happy, n he doesnt hav to try much, cox jux by looking at his face makes me lauf so hard, wif tat bunk face of his, u noe..