yesterday you said you wanted a separate life,
i asked if that means you want a break up,
you said yeah, it will be better for both of us.
at that moment, i froze in the mid air,
refusing to believe that this was the guy i loved so much
refusing to accept the fact that you wanted to break up
everything else doesnt matter anymore
tears came rolling down, i was delusional,
depressed and hurt
dont you know that i cried so frequently every night
thinking of you
i think i'm having a depression
dont you just care anymore?
ironically enough, i enjoyed reading
your yesterday's messages compared to the others
that was the most heart to heart conversation
i ever have with you since we got separated
by distance
and now, looks like you separated yourself
from me altogether
the thought of suicide came back haunting me
i never got out from my depression i suppose
why must you do this to me?
you know i was not a very strong person
i break down easily
i got upset, i got mad,
but most of all, i got hurt
because of you, i got a depression
if my depression got worse due to no treatment
it would be because of you my dear
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