alone

face the fact: i always have different ideas with my mom

we fought in msn, it's actually cold war so now i'm not contacting her
that basically leaves me alone here, just like anak derhaka
i was just trying to introduce the idea of a boyfriend but like usual,
her mind closed up, bla bla bla

alone
it's nothing new
i have always been alone
although not physically but mentally
i never share things or problems with my family
cox i know they can never accept my ideas

brought up with a steel grit
i never really open up to my family
doing so would means giving them space to condemn me
maybe they din realise that i'm just
another teenager exploring new horizon

looking at people who call so often to their family,
i wonder what they have to talk about
everytime i try to talk to my mom,
there are always things that she needs to "advise"
in the end, i got fed up and slowly i close up
and i learnt to keep my mouth shut