i=winderful weekend

tasted a macaron,
got a cute round soft toy,
bought the same pair of headphones,
it was one of the best weekeend, if not some of the things

my midterm result for example,
i can deal with that
but as for the events i joined as committee,
it was one of my greatest regrets
they robbed my time and my energy
and even worse, i
quit most of them at the last stages
wasnt really worth it for me
oh well, i know better than to join events next time
i love my peaceful life
when i first came here
sigh :(

the cat stared at the decapitated mouse with regret. his task finished for now, but there was more to the mission itself. gently putting down the poor hapless mouse aside, the cat strode off into the darkness within the city walls. the mission can wait, but not his missus.

i sat here
the room that i colonized
the smelly bedsheets and blanket piled up one side
replaced with my own
all my soft toys strewn on its new bed
my thick books on the newly wiped table
my small room
for temporary

its morning
yesterday rained heavily
i slept on and off
felt a warm figure beside me snuggling
liked d warmness even just awhile
wished it was longer
and then he went away
i continued sleeping

waking up
trying to study
barely managed a chapter
and then dozed off on the book

woke up again
went downstair to grab some bread
managed two chapters
he still havent wake up

i smelled the neighbours cooking
sometimes i wish i know how to cook

it would be great to wake him up with my breakfast
such a big dream, just to start a gas fire already failed

to be continued..

desolate piece

silence around me
not a human in sight
tis not zen
its loneliness
absolute loneliness
nobody around
i called his number
first time it went unanswered
second time it was hung after a few seconds
i was dying to talk to someone
couldnt find anyone else to talk
he was playing with his buddies over the other side
i was left abandoned in this whole lonely hostel
trying to block out all the horrifying images
i'm not someone very brave
but what could i do
looking at the endless corridors before me
felt like crying
it looks like a horror scene
depicted in a lonely hostel block
wanting to go to toilet badly
i hate you
i want somebody to talk to while i go toilet
i am scared
i'm just another one of those desperate girls
that seeks so much attention and energy

a deja vu
this feeling happened before
exactly one year ago
the loneliness in the room
tears keep dropping
couldnt sleep
didnt know what to do
last time you were there
nowadays i couldnt help complaining
had i taken you as granted?

tomorrow i'll be seeing you
all this feeling will be gone
if i choose to continue dwell on this feeling
both of us wont be happy
it would be better to forget all my negative thoughts
and just concentrate on the happier ones
they are meant to be buried deep inside

this week was my worst week ever.
it started off with a wild goose chase and ends up with a disappointment.
then my documents got rejected at jpa and i had to do it all over again
without a car, it's hard for me to get out
tried a few numbers for car rentals
but failed due to miscommunication
and i wasn't very confident of driving anyway
at that moment of desperateness, i asked his help
but he couldnt come over
i sort of expected him to come
and when he couldn't, i was between furious and disappointed
but i didn't force him
it wont be reasonable if i ask him to come all the way here
in the end, my all important jpa documents are still unsettled now
and the last row of the week,
my beautiful new dress got stolen off the hostel hook
i was beyond devastated
seriously, that bitch ought to rot in hell
you might think why all the fuss over a dress
that was favourite dress, and i only wore it twice
i couldnt imagine how the parents felt
when they turn up at kindergarden just to find their kid missing
it was beyond comparable
and what about those people who got their home stolen from them
or their body parts lost in a riot
and i in comparison only lost a dress
wasnt a very big deal isnt it
sigh
still, that was my favourite dress
it's really an unlucky week for me
hopefully next week will be better

i stayed on looking at him going away
dunno why i feel so depressed after that

somehow, the depressed feeling came back to haunt me
looking back, it's been a year now
maybe august is a time to mourn
it all comes back in a cycle

the first thing i saw when i came to my blogspot
CUT OUT SHOPPING


obviously i did the exact opposite
online shopping makes my day
it's so fun to browse through those prettie stuffs
and to know that if i want to buy anything
online bank transfer is so available
and to make things more addictive
i found more and more stuffs with happy prices

and to top it all
these shop owners treat you better than anyone else
every email sent is being replied
talk about boredom
i just love to make inquiries
and being answered
and then to make the purchase

and there's something more
the last part is the most enjoyable one of all
it's receiving the parcel part!
it feels so good to tear out the parcels
revealing the hidden stuffs
that really make my day, if not days
i love opening presents so much
even if they come from myself
the ecstasy of online shopping

what happen to budget?
ermmmmmm
how to stop myself i wonder

resolution, never too late

1. cut out shopping, every one of them, gotta mean it this time. no more new stuffs!
2. help boyfriend save his money, which means no more outings, no more expensive food, no more demanding him to travel, nothing more!
3. write these two things down and stick it on the wall

p/s cats gonna be my discipline masters

hey wall
looks like i kept coming back to you
today i went out with my old friend
he's from flemington
no, not my ex,
just another friend who works there
he brought me 'lim teh'
had some small talk
not really with me anyway
he was somehow working and just
brought me to tag along
so he had a business talk
with his customer while i sat there
like a lamp post
wasn't that bored anyway
kinda interesting to hear how people talk
people at the lower bottom of society
how they joke and tease at each other
but at the same time closing a business deal
i could never think that fast of a reply
or get a tongue that can answer in a humorous way
this makes business more interesting
while driving he nearly waved at every person
who drove past
and even he knew like nearly everybody in the restaurant
that we went to
kinda amazed me
which somehow reminded me of my father
he was from the lower bottom of the society
i had to say
the rough men as some would call it
they just got a very strong friendship
or a wide contact around everywhere i guess
bad or good i can't judge
anyhow this guy, my friend knows how to treat women well
he had a way with his speech too
but i'm not stupid to fall for it
he's not the first one who treat me like that
got another friend about like him too
tried to woo me once when i just broke up*grin grin*
but failed *evil smile*
i wondered if my mom fell for my father that way too
but what happened later on that led to the ultimate destruction
i don't know
couldn't help wondering if this guy would turn out like that too
don't get me wrong, i never like him
i mean, as a lover
i don't mind him as a friend
who knows i might need help from him next time
he got alot of contact in taiping
and he also told me lightly he tried to chase me
i mean, wtf?
i thought one person in the hotel is enough
didn't know he got that intention
or maybe i can't receive mandarin signal
guess i must be quite popular in the hotel
( a moment of narcissm... )
oh hail the almighty and pretty hr assistant
i'm just too good for anybody *shake booty*
oops, there's my beloved
aww, shucks.. he's engrossed in his study again
never mind, it's gonna end this week
this very week, i'll make sure he gives me
double the time he neglect me
bwahahahah
but i'm reaching kl only on saturday evening
seems like i only get few hours at best
and then the next day i will be kicked out
aww man
this really shucks :X
i hate life
only when i wasn't enjoying it
otherwise, i love life fine
especially when it's shopping time!!

i read of a love story
of how the girl waited for her lover
for years with full of faith and hope
that he will return

contrast
i waited for a mere few hours
that might stretch to a day or two
and already complaining

how the love characters in
those hopeless romantic stories
can stand the situation


i really wonder

sharing a little of the similarities,
the girl wrote poetries on paper
to pass her wave of emotions
while i write it on blogs
which serves about the same purpose

funny how comforting is it to
pour our feelings somewhere else
rather than to where we want it to be
is it because i'm afraid of confrontations?

aye,
as i always do since i was a small child

opinions and thoughts
straight from somebody with the upperhand;

is it not how i always shudder
to what i am about to hear

the fear of what i am about to comprehend
too great for the liking of me
i am but a strong soul
sometimes i believe i can be independant
but many times as well,
i wish you could be there for me
all the time
but to this wanting an asking too great
i deserved no soul
who am i to ask
everything you have to offer
i am just another girl
that may be too weak
for her own good
forgive me my beloved
but the need to be with you
outcries my heart itself

back

i'm back.

was just thinking how we used to be so close
before we got this close
one of the life irony isn't it

remember how you used to bring me to surprise trips nearly every weekend?
i miss those moments, those unassuming moments
when i thought that your gestures were too much for a friend like me
and as time goes on, slowly i took those moments for granted

which leaves me feeling unsatisfied and left out at times
as i felt what little time we spent together now is not enough.

our first trip was to a shopping centre called times square
when i felt i desperately need some more clothes to wear
and as we slowly got warmed up,
you start bringing me to places
i really enjoyed those moments
you made me love my weekends which i used to hate so much

we covered nearly every big shopping centres nearby
in about just a month, you brought me to five different shopping centres
you knew i love it, and i really do
and once, you brought me out to town
and i marveled just at the many different trains we had to take
remember how i behaved in the train, think we could do that again?

you brought me to the national zoo
we weren't a couple back then
bu i felt like we were
it has been so long now

you held my hand first in midvalley
on the pretence i walked too slow
ok fine, maybe i was the one who gave you my hand
but still you are the one who offered it first
and the thing is, we weren't a couple back then 
funny that's the only moment i can remember we first held hands
can you remember when we first hold hands after we were a couple?
i count panorama hotel as long after we are couple, though that's the official one.
when do we first unrealisingly got tangled into each other's life?

one day, you brought me to the top of broga hills
i loved the way you woke me up that morning; so gentle
and though i already woke up, i kept hiding behind the blanket
so that you kept on calling me
i loved the way you already prepared my breakfast
i felt so much like a pampered kid
and i love feeling that way
but i hate what went on after that
cause hiking up reminded me so much of my now ex boyfriend
and i wouldn't want to think about the hiking process
until now
maybe that was one thing i could never get over
embarassing myself in front of people

i hope we can spice up things a little
i want you to be the old sam i met the first time
not the current grouchy sam
treat me like a kid once more
let's go to the beach someday

shopping time!!!

okay, so this is my semester break, i'm moving on to a new blog soon, this old blog is just too depressing, only for depressing purposes. see you on the other side!

offline blogshop!

can't wait after my finals!!! next week, definitely next week.. i'm going to my shopping haven! all under one roof, with so many pretty pretty things to see!!  Offline Blogshop

some of the things i bought :p

SB - sleeping beauty
SU - supermodel
AH -always hungry
PR - procastinator
UA - unavailable
SS - syok sendiri

these badges are one of a kind!!
so many to choose from!
www.individium.com

my favourite purple bracelet from my beloved bf!!
i got in touch with the maker and she said its
loosely based on the theme of flirty rosy!
craftedbymei.blogspot.com

also by the same maker, this is actually based on the
theme of Dark Angel (customized).
craftedbymei.blogspot.com

*after finals wishlist* :D

1. some colorful tank tops (sexy... :X)

2. dresses or something cute to wear :3

3. unique card holder (search from offline blogshop)

4. angry bird plushie (definitely the black one)

5. accessories!! (ring, bracelet, necklace? - offline blogshop too)

6. lavish food cravings

7. anything else in mind?

estimated budget : rm150

estimated cost : rm300

oh no! it's approximately double more than i budgeted >.<

Alternative 1 : push up my budget
Alternative 2 : cut some things out of the list
Alternative 3 : outsource from mummy's acc :p (bad idea)

Decision:

Alternative 1 and 3

cut out some of my wishlist? NO WAY!!!

oh ya, another alternative : Starve and die of hunger

ok, so i'm being dramatic ==
i'll cancel some of my wishlist if that makes everyone happy
*rolls eyes* (if only i know how to do that in real life) 

to make it simple, please blindfold my eyes when i go to Times.
i'm PRACTICING my concept of "see no evil, buy no evil"

Yes, it had been decided that i want to go to Times
(again.... but other shopping centres can still be considered)

and if i show any first signs of DISTRESS, kindly remove the blindfold from me to prevent my auto self destruction from being activated, you don't want me to explode because of your negligence, do you?

arigato~



*ONE more thing, this blog is equipped with too little colors and font for me to choose from
isn't fun at all :(

all the little things

all the little things that make a girl pretty

bracelet is one of them
nowadays i find myself looking at the bracelet page
every now and then so often
thinking how it would look on my wrist

call that an obsession
i love every bit of bracelets
they're different from bangles though
bangles are hard solid metal that circles around the hand
bracelets are more fragile, that hangs around the hand with chains
yea, somehow i love the fact my wrist is "chained"
no, i'm not sadistic nor emo
it just reminds me how i sometimes feel like

chained

besides that, my wrist is somehow smaller than average
although i'm certainly not that short
so if i wear bangles,
they would just fall off from my wrist
and there it goes my expensive bangles
bracelet is much better
sometimes they have customization service
that measures the length of the bracelet that you like

now, why do i have to wear something on my wrist?
call that an obsession again
all the little things that make a girl pretty

it started with...

hair accessories
bracelet
necklace
ring
earrings
and more to come!

major disappointment

what does a sad cat do?
it hides in a corner and refuses to eat
yea, that's me right now

somehow i feel like i'm failing
i didn't spend much time on studying nowadays
there's always something to do, to finish
everything's like piling up and never ending

the effect?
i can't do my business stat quiz this morning
the feeling of not being able to do something
that you know you should know how to do
is horrible and eating me inside out
how can i not know what to do with figures?
that had been my forte since young!

out of 3 questions, i can only manage one
only one! i practically failed already

cat feels so sad and disappointed
where does it find its comfort?
under the blanket

in the midst of assignment

maybe because i'm born in the year of goat
that i'm fated to be the goat sacrifice

for all the assignments
i sacrificed my attendance to classes
i sacrificed my time to read through
i sacrificed my effort to go to library, lecturers
i sacrificed my play time
i sacrificed my study time
i sacrificed all that i have
just to finish them

it may be my strongest weakness
that i'm not good at coordinating my members
that i do not give clear instructions
that i can't accept my their shoddy work attempt
that i must edit the whole thing over again
that i must put all my efforts into getting it perfect
just to finish them

why group assignments exist?

to give an easy way to those who does nothing?
to torture those who put effort in it?
i dont see the point of group assignment
if it always end up in my hands.

next time, i'm gonna go solo.

in search of the golden sun

it was a random decision
to take a walk around my whole campus
this evening

it was a nice day
one of my favourite phrases
and i appreciate nice days

like a wandering cat
i went around walking
on grasses, on terrains, on roads

i could feel a slight wind
and it felt like walking
in cold places
like cameron highland

my university actually had beautiful trees
one day i'm gonna take some pictures
with the trees

everytime i i think it's a nice day
i always wanted to go with my beloved
to the hidden parks of putrajaya
i kept thinking it will be such a waste
not to go on nice cool days

someday i'm gonna sit by the lake
on a windy day when the sun hides behind the clouds
i want him to tie my hair into plaits
i'll teach him how someday
note to myself

i want to touch d obelisk again
this time i will bring a charm bracelet
who knows there might be some wonders

charm bracelet

i looked around everywhere for him
yet still no sight
i was so tempted to ask the girl beside me
what time is it now
but keeping track of time
would make the wait longer

i continue waiting
there's a public phone in front of me
i felt like calling him
but thought otherwise
it would seem like i'm rushing him
no, i can wait

a few batches of people
come and go from the train
i sat there wondering
should i go over to him

sitting there
i told myself
to smile
when i see him
and keep a pleasant face
to welcome him
when he arrives

and when he arrived
the smile was surprisingly genuine
my heart leapt with joy
and tingled with delight
upon seeing him
all the hours of waiting
just melted into the air

and we went onto a journey
in search of a charm bracelet
just for his pretty little princess

and the charm bracelet
now sits perfectly on my wrist
can't help looking at it
every now and then

it was really hard to choose
being me who loves any bracelets
each of then had their own prettiness
but when i saw the tiny little loves in the purple one
the choice was immediately made
that bracelet would symbolise the loves
that hang in every chain of our lives

today i walked back from the class
with the bright bright sun above me
which makes a shadow out of me
walking along beside me

from the shadow on the ground
i see my hair flowing behind me
its been quite long since last time
oh how i adore my hair
its straight and thick naturally
but just at times
i cant help wondering
what it will be like
to have curls on my head

i thought about him
oh how i love him
he thinks i'm pretty
maybe the prettiest girl
haha, so much of confidence here

i love pretty little things
they make me feel pretty
even for just a second
pretty little things in life
ah, my obsession

he doesnt share my obsession
he doesnt see my view of prettiness
he doesnt find them practical
but still he's willing to make it happen

the pretty little things i love

including him <3

cat

my cat would be the king of house
if it wants to eat, food must be there
if it wants the bed, space must be given
if it wants to be cuddled, it must be cuddled
if it feels hot, air cond must be on
if it feels cold, fan must be off
if it feels grumpy, it must be comforted
if it wants me, it will have me
 
my cat is superior :)

window post

its a rainy day once again. i'm snuggled in my room, warm and snugged. looking out from my window, an orange streak ran across the sky. sometimes i would just wish if i can see a superman flying pass by. that would certainly light up my day. looking back, i wondered who am i.

i was the girl sitting at the front row in class photos
i was the girl placed at the front in school events
i was the girl at the front places in school exams
i was someone back then

who cares if i was at the front of everything
i lost my old identity
i am nobody now
just another girl in the society

how does that fact add to my misery
i don't know
sometimes i miss those old moments
where i feel like i got everything
under my control

oh superman
please fly by

the walk

he put out his hand, and she took it into hers.

gently, he escorted her to the secret garden
down into the less trodden path
where the leaves and flowers paves the ground
where the radiant of the sun paints the evening
marking its shine on the twinkling water in the lake

it was by yet the most beautiful garden she had seen

she smiled at him, happy to be in his arms
taking in everything she saw into her breath
it was the walk of eternity, where everything held still
just like a walk down the aisle of marriage

the sight of the white moroccan palace greeted her first
with its delicate intrinsic design, water fountain in the middle,
it was just simply stunning enough for her

his leg got caught in the water hole first
he fell down, pulling her together, splashing water
his leg got wet and her shoes got wet
she was too amused to be angry

there was a bridge
among the tall giant trees
it brought them above the trees
where they could look below
and pretend to be squirrels

deeper into the garden, they reached a fleet of stairs
wide stone stairs with little seashells lined at each of the steps
she stepped cautiously into each of the steps,
careful not to step onto those tiny white seashells

she imagined herself a beautiful forest guardian
with white flowing dress and a flower head wreath
walking as if floating gracefully
where the wind blows gently, tugging a little at the dress
with colorful butterflies flying around her

and then she saw it

the obelisk

straight ahead 

the deepest secret in the garden
where it holds the oldest magic
when the sun is in its strongest
the door to the other world might open

they got there in no time
though it was a hard climb
the white path laid there inviting
which led to the obelisk itself

she whispered some magic words
but nothing happened
she tried again
yet again it was blank

disappointed, she peered behind the tower
to see what was beyond there
carefully they made a higher climb
stepping onto the rocky edges
putting their lives at risk
just to fulfil her curiousity

what was behind
caught her breath
it was the magic itself

cat in cage

gently he closed the cage
whilst looking at the cat,
hoping it would understand
he's gonna leave it here
in this sad lonely cage

it didn't even try to meow
it didn't even try to scratch
it knew this is gonna to happen someday
when its owner got tired of it

he held his heart for a moment
a wave of guilt swept pass him
but he knew this had to happen
before it got too late

as he walked away
the cat looked on
the tears wont come
but its heart continue to break

as he walked on
he stole a glance on the mirror
it broke his heart
to see how forlorn its cat was

it understood perfectly well
many had hated it
for taking away its owner
from many of his beloved

i couldn't afford to fail again
he thought,
it wasn't its fault
but keeping the cat there
was all he could think of

the cat put a paw on the door
hesitating for a moment
though it knows the way to its owner
he wouldn't like it
the cat put its paw away

money gone, friends gone
he doesn't what that to happen
but that's the stark truth
they come in one package
cat, time, money, energy
he's just tired

it rested its head on its paw
unknowingly, it had became the culprit
the root of everything that is wrong
i'll stay strong, i can survive it here
the cat thinking to itself
through the bars




he let down his friends
friends that were the closest to him
he failed before
something he had never done before
he tried to block all this thoughts
it wasn't the cat's fault
he tried to tell himself
it wasn't anyone's fault

the cat closed its eyes
it won't be weak
it won't be weak

i can stay strong
without seeing him that often
it won't hurt him anymore


hiding its head in its paw
the tears finally came

he pointed to the shining tiny little figurines on display.
immediately i went.... "SO CUTE!!!~~"
he asked me, " You want?"
i shook my head
but my gaze is still on those pinky purplish figurines
we walked a few steps
and my thoughts were still on those cute things
"Ok fine, if it's less than RM10, i'll buy it," i exclaimed
so we went back to the roofless stall under the tree

he gave the man the money and i got the rabbit
transaction done, leaving me super happy and satisfied
i felt like a pampered kid asking for a toy
with her wish granted
that simple feeling left me happy as a child

we were there for the hot air balloon display
but alas we reached there not at the right time
we see people "one two one two" heaving the basket
but into the lorry, not the other way round
aiks, well, at least i saw the basket with glorious fire above it

since we reached there, we hang around surveying the area
basically they sell nearly the same items, based on night lights
they're colorful and pretty, ignoring the muddy area and some stinky smell
and also ignoring the constant nagging that my exam is just tomorrow!
haha, screw you account exam!

before going back, we bought 20 of that cute figurines
i got an idea to sell those cute things, but wasn't very sure of it
he's the one who confirmed (so he said), or assured me to do that
and the next day, i sold it all off, with profit of 50%
haha, i dont do much persuading to my customers even
they're just too cute to resist!
should have bought more >.<

as for the exam itself, we had exam in the darkness
yea, screw you MMU.
it's me who had my exam in the darkness
everyone else got their handphone brought out, i left mine in my room
and so poor me have to squint her eyes out just to make out the question
and to make sure i got the numbers right
and yes, the whole place was in total darkness
i was "lucky" perhaps that the person next to me had a bright handphone light
after trying so hard to answer my papers, there is a possibility we have to retake
oh well, i'm sure there are lots out there who cheated
the chance's just too good!
i would too, if i HAD a handphone with me that time
screw you, TNB! or whoever who manages the electricity here

these days i feel like i'm not going on so well with him. it's always about my late night going out with my friends. he feels its wrong for me to come back late at night but i think it's okay once in a while, like i came back before two. on one hand, i like going out with my friends at night to chill off the tension that accumulated during the day, but on the other hand, he doesnt like it at all. to say i would never go out at night again would be lying. but then again, to say i would go out at night again would hurt his feeling. his or my feelings first?

death

since my cousin passed away two days ago, i find myself thinking alot of her.
funny how often she popped out in my mind only after she died
regretted the chance not to know her well before this
such a cheerful person, always be the first to attempt a conversation with me
she first asked me out this year, for new year shopping in ipoh
i never knew that would be the first and the last time she asked me out
i wish i could talk to her more,, really i wish i could

its a pity she couldnt achieve her dream.. yet
just newly enrolled in teacher trainee college, i could see she's happy there
i wonder how it feel, to be robbed out of your life
when there is still a dream inside you
and to die in such an abrupt way
will her soul comprehend this?

her parents must be crushed, she was their pride and joy
i could still remember, the day she achieved excellant results in SPM
her father was so happy that he couldn't eat
what would he do now that his beloved daughter is gone?

reality is harsh, unpredictable, unfair
now that i got my nose stuck after letting myself into emotion
i don't feel like doing anything else.
staying up the whole night wasn't my forte
but doing it once in awhile makes me feel good,
the only time where my emotion really resurfaces

ice cream day

smiling from inside
she tasted the first sweet cold ice cream

its called love potion
sweet berry taste with chocolate chips

tingling with delight,
she took another mouthful

this time, it tasted bitter
that strong chocolate sugar free taste

happy beyond wonders,
she looked into the face she loved
searching for a smile

and she smiled back,
she took a bit from his

a sweeter chocolate, with more milk
just like him, milky sweet

sighing with content
she basked herself into the
sweet contour of ice cream

i miss you

it was just the night before that

you told me; you love me

and yet because of something i did
that displeases you
made you ignore me

it has been a whole day now

i hate to be ignored
it makes me feel left out
makes me feel i'm not loved
anymore

i'm sad
full with sorrow
engulfed by darkness
dreadfully lonely

wont you come to me?

couldnt sleep tonight
maybe should try talking
to the moon

he wasn't here
he wants to be alone
kinda worried
it's that a sign?

he always tell me
that he likes solitude
which makes me wonder
what makes my presence?

there're some things
that you don't tell me
sometimes i felt
useless and ignored


maybe i wasn't mature enough
maybe i wasn't understanding
but i would like to hear you out
even though i couldn't offer advices

talk to me would you?

imma is being burned alive in her room
the sun is merciless
the heat is everywhere
poor imma

imma wan die
new sem new workload

i was in the popular group once.
in my whole year life of schooling.
up til now.

life gets a little lonely
at times
when i eat alone
walk to class alone
stay in the room

so much difference from before
i was the loud one once
i enjoyed attractions

not that i hate it here
in fact, i enjoy my own company
i don't have to follow others
i do whatever i want

but sometimes,
i miss the sense of belonging,
the sense of fun,
in a group together,
conquering the class,
like the whole school is ours

and we complained
like we can't wait
to get our ass out
from the school

the irony of the whole thing :)

he got exam
poke poke poke

he'll not be in taiping
poke poke poke

no more birthday or valentine ad
poke poke poke

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
emo betul >.<

 i check my phone for his messages
even though i know there wont be

i want to see a cute message from him
even though i know there wont be

i want to see his number calling
even though i know there wont be

it's only just one day
that he's busy

and it will be like that
till the end of this week

but i already miss him
alot

A Meeting

A quivering child
under the rain
Cold and hungry

Water dripping from
her hair and torn dress

Nowhere to go
Abandoned and
forlorned.

She wandered around
No one's outside
It'a quiet world
Only the sound of rain

Lost, she sat down
on a trodden path
She rested her head
in her thin arms

The rain stopped
after a while
She looked up 
Something peeked out
from the bush nearby

Two blinking eyes
Pixie?
The girl looked at it
Curiously

A sharp face
Slender body
Just around her knee's
height

It smiled at her
Motioned her to follow

Hesitant at first,
she slowly picked her steps

And soon she found herself
chasing after that weird creature
To somewhere
Taking the forbidden path
That no one ever goes

She doesnt know
What's in the other end
But in her heart
The lonely feeling's gone
Replaced by an
unspeakable joy and
freedom

She spread her wings and fly

1.1.11

ZZZZZ
then something vibrated
me: hello? *in a sexy voice*
he: hello! *bright voice*
.........
.........
.........
he: do you want to see me?
me: duwan~ (he got his finals, shouldnt ask him to come all the way here)
he: look outside the window
me: WAT?
(realization sunk in; i
jumped down the bed,
flew to the window,
squinted at d car,
put on specs,
OMG, there he is!)

:) a happy new year indeed!
thanks darling!