death

since my cousin passed away two days ago, i find myself thinking alot of her.
funny how often she popped out in my mind only after she died
regretted the chance not to know her well before this
such a cheerful person, always be the first to attempt a conversation with me
she first asked me out this year, for new year shopping in ipoh
i never knew that would be the first and the last time she asked me out
i wish i could talk to her more,, really i wish i could

its a pity she couldnt achieve her dream.. yet
just newly enrolled in teacher trainee college, i could see she's happy there
i wonder how it feel, to be robbed out of your life
when there is still a dream inside you
and to die in such an abrupt way
will her soul comprehend this?

her parents must be crushed, she was their pride and joy
i could still remember, the day she achieved excellant results in SPM
her father was so happy that he couldn't eat
what would he do now that his beloved daughter is gone?

reality is harsh, unpredictable, unfair
now that i got my nose stuck after letting myself into emotion
i don't feel like doing anything else.
staying up the whole night wasn't my forte
but doing it once in awhile makes me feel good,
the only time where my emotion really resurfaces