i was in the popular group once.
in my whole year life of schooling.
up til now.

life gets a little lonely
at times
when i eat alone
walk to class alone
stay in the room

so much difference from before
i was the loud one once
i enjoyed attractions

not that i hate it here
in fact, i enjoy my own company
i don't have to follow others
i do whatever i want

but sometimes,
i miss the sense of belonging,
the sense of fun,
in a group together,
conquering the class,
like the whole school is ours

and we complained
like we can't wait
to get our ass out
from the school

the irony of the whole thing :)

he got exam
poke poke poke

he'll not be in taiping
poke poke poke

no more birthday or valentine ad
poke poke poke

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
emo betul >.<

 i check my phone for his messages
even though i know there wont be

i want to see a cute message from him
even though i know there wont be

i want to see his number calling
even though i know there wont be

it's only just one day
that he's busy

and it will be like that
till the end of this week

but i already miss him
alot

A Meeting

A quivering child
under the rain
Cold and hungry

Water dripping from
her hair and torn dress

Nowhere to go
Abandoned and
forlorned.

She wandered around
No one's outside
It'a quiet world
Only the sound of rain

Lost, she sat down
on a trodden path
She rested her head
in her thin arms

The rain stopped
after a while
She looked up 
Something peeked out
from the bush nearby

Two blinking eyes
Pixie?
The girl looked at it
Curiously

A sharp face
Slender body
Just around her knee's
height

It smiled at her
Motioned her to follow

Hesitant at first,
she slowly picked her steps

And soon she found herself
chasing after that weird creature
To somewhere
Taking the forbidden path
That no one ever goes

She doesnt know
What's in the other end
But in her heart
The lonely feeling's gone
Replaced by an
unspeakable joy and
freedom

She spread her wings and fly

1.1.11

ZZZZZ
then something vibrated
me: hello? *in a sexy voice*
he: hello! *bright voice*
.........
.........
.........
he: do you want to see me?
me: duwan~ (he got his finals, shouldnt ask him to come all the way here)
he: look outside the window
me: WAT?
(realization sunk in; i
jumped down the bed,
flew to the window,
squinted at d car,
put on specs,
OMG, there he is!)

:) a happy new year indeed!
thanks darling!

wishing for an end

everyone is so excited of going to singapore... not me though
i got so much things on my hand to worry right now
especially my english presentation
only god knows how much it's occupying my mind night and day
my stubborn lecturer does not wan to change date
which forces me to do a live webcam presentation if i want to get my 5 marks or
nothing at all. yep, fat zero.
and she set the time where i'm supposed to be at universal studio.
great
now i'm stuck between getting my money's worth at universal studio or
getting my coursework marks.
so far, what i planned is to run out from the universal studio for 2 hours to get
wifi connection at my hotel.
damn. i'm wasting my 2 hours money. or even more.
so great.

next is my economic presentation
which is after my singapore trip.
and the great thing about is,
i have to make sure my presentation stand out
with entertainment value
just because i pleaded my econ lecturer to change
my date of presentation, which again,
falls on this friday, the day i'm going to singapore!

not only that, my computer assignment is giving me headaches too
deadline is next friday, i havent do anything yet
need powerpoint presentation and a report too
just so great

i got 3 crucial things on my mind
its a no wonder i kept dreaming funny things
poor brain, too much stress
i would be so looking forward to christmas night where
everything will be over

a prison of memories

click ALL
click DELETE

gone are all my old love letters
such a contrast between
our first few letters
and the final ones

felt a pang in my heart
a tiny remorse feeling
but not enough to bring
back my sorrowful tears
yet it still hurts
a little