i dreamt of my ex last night
i wanted him to hold me
which he did, and somehow it felt good,
putting his hands on my shoulders to my back
gently he told me that
we could not be together again
 
being consciously awake, i dont think about him
and we dont even keep in contact anymore
in fact, i never talk once with any of my exes
after those big break up incidents
i wonder how people can be friends again
without reigniting the old flames?

whereas in the realms of the dreams
i wanted him to come back
how do i get away from this guiltiness
that surrounds me every time i wake up
surely the mind runs while if its kept unoccupied

but dont take me wrong
the will for the current relationship stays strong
even though if its separated by distance
i wouldnt want to lose him
though feelings might be stretched thin sometimes
i hope it will bounce back to how i felt before