hey wall
looks like i kept coming back to you
today i went out with my old friend
he's from flemington
no, not my ex,
just another friend who works there
he brought me 'lim teh'
had some small talk
not really with me anyway
he was somehow working and just
brought me to tag along
so he had a business talk
with his customer while i sat there
like a lamp post
wasn't that bored anyway
kinda interesting to hear how people talk
people at the lower bottom of society
how they joke and tease at each other
but at the same time closing a business deal
i could never think that fast of a reply
or get a tongue that can answer in a humorous way
this makes business more interesting
while driving he nearly waved at every person
who drove past
and even he knew like nearly everybody in the restaurant
that we went to
kinda amazed me
which somehow reminded me of my father
he was from the lower bottom of the society
i had to say
the rough men as some would call it
they just got a very strong friendship
or a wide contact around everywhere i guess
bad or good i can't judge
anyhow this guy, my friend knows how to treat women well
he had a way with his speech too
but i'm not stupid to fall for it
he's not the first one who treat me like that
got another friend about like him too
tried to woo me once when i just broke up*grin grin*
but failed *evil smile*
i wondered if my mom fell for my father that way too
but what happened later on that led to the ultimate destruction
i don't know
couldn't help wondering if this guy would turn out like that too
don't get me wrong, i never like him
i mean, as a lover
i don't mind him as a friend
who knows i might need help from him next time
he got alot of contact in taiping
and he also told me lightly he tried to chase me
i mean, wtf?
i thought one person in the hotel is enough
didn't know he got that intention
or maybe i can't receive mandarin signal
guess i must be quite popular in the hotel
( a moment of narcissm... )
oh hail the almighty and pretty hr assistant
i'm just too good for anybody *shake booty*
oops, there's my beloved
aww, shucks.. he's engrossed in his study again
never mind, it's gonna end this week
this very week, i'll make sure he gives me
double the time he neglect me
bwahahahah
but i'm reaching kl only on saturday evening
seems like i only get few hours at best
and then the next day i will be kicked out
aww man
this really shucks :X
i hate life
only when i wasn't enjoying it
otherwise, i love life fine
especially when it's shopping time!!

i read of a love story
of how the girl waited for her lover
for years with full of faith and hope
that he will return

contrast
i waited for a mere few hours
that might stretch to a day or two
and already complaining

how the love characters in
those hopeless romantic stories
can stand the situation


i really wonder

sharing a little of the similarities,
the girl wrote poetries on paper
to pass her wave of emotions
while i write it on blogs
which serves about the same purpose

funny how comforting is it to
pour our feelings somewhere else
rather than to where we want it to be
is it because i'm afraid of confrontations?

aye,
as i always do since i was a small child

opinions and thoughts
straight from somebody with the upperhand;

is it not how i always shudder
to what i am about to hear

the fear of what i am about to comprehend
too great for the liking of me
i am but a strong soul
sometimes i believe i can be independant
but many times as well,
i wish you could be there for me
all the time
but to this wanting an asking too great
i deserved no soul
who am i to ask
everything you have to offer
i am just another girl
that may be too weak
for her own good
forgive me my beloved
but the need to be with you
outcries my heart itself

back

i'm back.

was just thinking how we used to be so close
before we got this close
one of the life irony isn't it

remember how you used to bring me to surprise trips nearly every weekend?
i miss those moments, those unassuming moments
when i thought that your gestures were too much for a friend like me
and as time goes on, slowly i took those moments for granted

which leaves me feeling unsatisfied and left out at times
as i felt what little time we spent together now is not enough.

our first trip was to a shopping centre called times square
when i felt i desperately need some more clothes to wear
and as we slowly got warmed up,
you start bringing me to places
i really enjoyed those moments
you made me love my weekends which i used to hate so much

we covered nearly every big shopping centres nearby
in about just a month, you brought me to five different shopping centres
you knew i love it, and i really do
and once, you brought me out to town
and i marveled just at the many different trains we had to take
remember how i behaved in the train, think we could do that again?

you brought me to the national zoo
we weren't a couple back then
bu i felt like we were
it has been so long now

you held my hand first in midvalley
on the pretence i walked too slow
ok fine, maybe i was the one who gave you my hand
but still you are the one who offered it first
and the thing is, we weren't a couple back then 
funny that's the only moment i can remember we first held hands
can you remember when we first hold hands after we were a couple?
i count panorama hotel as long after we are couple, though that's the official one.
when do we first unrealisingly got tangled into each other's life?

one day, you brought me to the top of broga hills
i loved the way you woke me up that morning; so gentle
and though i already woke up, i kept hiding behind the blanket
so that you kept on calling me
i loved the way you already prepared my breakfast
i felt so much like a pampered kid
and i love feeling that way
but i hate what went on after that
cause hiking up reminded me so much of my now ex boyfriend
and i wouldn't want to think about the hiking process
until now
maybe that was one thing i could never get over
embarassing myself in front of people

i hope we can spice up things a little
i want you to be the old sam i met the first time
not the current grouchy sam
treat me like a kid once more
let's go to the beach someday

shopping time!!!

okay, so this is my semester break, i'm moving on to a new blog soon, this old blog is just too depressing, only for depressing purposes. see you on the other side!

offline blogshop!

can't wait after my finals!!! next week, definitely next week.. i'm going to my shopping haven! all under one roof, with so many pretty pretty things to see!!  Offline Blogshop

some of the things i bought :p

SB - sleeping beauty
SU - supermodel
AH -always hungry
PR - procastinator
UA - unavailable
SS - syok sendiri

these badges are one of a kind!!
so many to choose from!
www.individium.com

my favourite purple bracelet from my beloved bf!!
i got in touch with the maker and she said its
loosely based on the theme of flirty rosy!
craftedbymei.blogspot.com

also by the same maker, this is actually based on the
theme of Dark Angel (customized).
craftedbymei.blogspot.com

*after finals wishlist* :D

1. some colorful tank tops (sexy... :X)

2. dresses or something cute to wear :3

3. unique card holder (search from offline blogshop)

4. angry bird plushie (definitely the black one)

5. accessories!! (ring, bracelet, necklace? - offline blogshop too)

6. lavish food cravings

7. anything else in mind?

estimated budget : rm150

estimated cost : rm300

oh no! it's approximately double more than i budgeted >.<

Alternative 1 : push up my budget
Alternative 2 : cut some things out of the list
Alternative 3 : outsource from mummy's acc :p (bad idea)

Decision:

Alternative 1 and 3

cut out some of my wishlist? NO WAY!!!

oh ya, another alternative : Starve and die of hunger

ok, so i'm being dramatic ==
i'll cancel some of my wishlist if that makes everyone happy
*rolls eyes* (if only i know how to do that in real life) 

to make it simple, please blindfold my eyes when i go to Times.
i'm PRACTICING my concept of "see no evil, buy no evil"

Yes, it had been decided that i want to go to Times
(again.... but other shopping centres can still be considered)

and if i show any first signs of DISTRESS, kindly remove the blindfold from me to prevent my auto self destruction from being activated, you don't want me to explode because of your negligence, do you?

arigato~



*ONE more thing, this blog is equipped with too little colors and font for me to choose from
isn't fun at all :(

all the little things

all the little things that make a girl pretty

bracelet is one of them
nowadays i find myself looking at the bracelet page
every now and then so often
thinking how it would look on my wrist

call that an obsession
i love every bit of bracelets
they're different from bangles though
bangles are hard solid metal that circles around the hand
bracelets are more fragile, that hangs around the hand with chains
yea, somehow i love the fact my wrist is "chained"
no, i'm not sadistic nor emo
it just reminds me how i sometimes feel like

chained

besides that, my wrist is somehow smaller than average
although i'm certainly not that short
so if i wear bangles,
they would just fall off from my wrist
and there it goes my expensive bangles
bracelet is much better
sometimes they have customization service
that measures the length of the bracelet that you like

now, why do i have to wear something on my wrist?
call that an obsession again
all the little things that make a girl pretty

it started with...

hair accessories
bracelet
necklace
ring
earrings
and more to come!