he pointed to the shining tiny little figurines on display.
immediately i went.... "SO CUTE!!!~~"
he asked me, " You want?"
i shook my head
but my gaze is still on those pinky purplish figurines
we walked a few steps
and my thoughts were still on those cute things
"Ok fine, if it's less than RM10, i'll buy it," i exclaimed
so we went back to the roofless stall under the tree

he gave the man the money and i got the rabbit
transaction done, leaving me super happy and satisfied
i felt like a pampered kid asking for a toy
with her wish granted
that simple feeling left me happy as a child

we were there for the hot air balloon display
but alas we reached there not at the right time
we see people "one two one two" heaving the basket
but into the lorry, not the other way round
aiks, well, at least i saw the basket with glorious fire above it

since we reached there, we hang around surveying the area
basically they sell nearly the same items, based on night lights
they're colorful and pretty, ignoring the muddy area and some stinky smell
and also ignoring the constant nagging that my exam is just tomorrow!
haha, screw you account exam!

before going back, we bought 20 of that cute figurines
i got an idea to sell those cute things, but wasn't very sure of it
he's the one who confirmed (so he said), or assured me to do that
and the next day, i sold it all off, with profit of 50%
haha, i dont do much persuading to my customers even
they're just too cute to resist!
should have bought more >.<

as for the exam itself, we had exam in the darkness
yea, screw you MMU.
it's me who had my exam in the darkness
everyone else got their handphone brought out, i left mine in my room
and so poor me have to squint her eyes out just to make out the question
and to make sure i got the numbers right
and yes, the whole place was in total darkness
i was "lucky" perhaps that the person next to me had a bright handphone light
after trying so hard to answer my papers, there is a possibility we have to retake
oh well, i'm sure there are lots out there who cheated
the chance's just too good!
i would too, if i HAD a handphone with me that time
screw you, TNB! or whoever who manages the electricity here

these days i feel like i'm not going on so well with him. it's always about my late night going out with my friends. he feels its wrong for me to come back late at night but i think it's okay once in a while, like i came back before two. on one hand, i like going out with my friends at night to chill off the tension that accumulated during the day, but on the other hand, he doesnt like it at all. to say i would never go out at night again would be lying. but then again, to say i would go out at night again would hurt his feeling. his or my feelings first?

death

since my cousin passed away two days ago, i find myself thinking alot of her.
funny how often she popped out in my mind only after she died
regretted the chance not to know her well before this
such a cheerful person, always be the first to attempt a conversation with me
she first asked me out this year, for new year shopping in ipoh
i never knew that would be the first and the last time she asked me out
i wish i could talk to her more,, really i wish i could

its a pity she couldnt achieve her dream.. yet
just newly enrolled in teacher trainee college, i could see she's happy there
i wonder how it feel, to be robbed out of your life
when there is still a dream inside you
and to die in such an abrupt way
will her soul comprehend this?

her parents must be crushed, she was their pride and joy
i could still remember, the day she achieved excellant results in SPM
her father was so happy that he couldn't eat
what would he do now that his beloved daughter is gone?

reality is harsh, unpredictable, unfair
now that i got my nose stuck after letting myself into emotion
i don't feel like doing anything else.
staying up the whole night wasn't my forte
but doing it once in awhile makes me feel good,
the only time where my emotion really resurfaces

ice cream day

smiling from inside
she tasted the first sweet cold ice cream

its called love potion
sweet berry taste with chocolate chips

tingling with delight,
she took another mouthful

this time, it tasted bitter
that strong chocolate sugar free taste

happy beyond wonders,
she looked into the face she loved
searching for a smile

and she smiled back,
she took a bit from his

a sweeter chocolate, with more milk
just like him, milky sweet

sighing with content
she basked herself into the
sweet contour of ice cream

i miss you

it was just the night before that

you told me; you love me

and yet because of something i did
that displeases you
made you ignore me

it has been a whole day now

i hate to be ignored
it makes me feel left out
makes me feel i'm not loved
anymore

i'm sad
full with sorrow
engulfed by darkness
dreadfully lonely

wont you come to me?