Mourning

there will be a personal mourning for the beloved husband of Syncora;
father of 2 cats; Bunkface Jr 1 and Bunkface Jr 2,
whom had passed away peacefully 2 months ago.
sorry for the delay of the mourning ceremony
coz the widow had been living under an illusion
all this while.

it's time to move on.
We'll all pray for a peaceful departure of a very loving man.
Rest in peace.

a simple love story
how easily it destroys an innocent smile of a girl
how easily it breaks a heart into pieces
leaving a phantom of memory behind
it will never be the same after that
for the life of that girl
each memories pierce through the mind
rewinding themselves at times not needed

oh why do you leave me unforgotten memories?
oh why do you leave me unhealed scars?

heart

because i love you, i let you go
because i love you, i step aside
because i love you, i cry alone
because i love you, i gave you my heart

the aftermath

yesterday you said you wanted a separate life,
i asked if that means you want a break up,
you said yeah, it will be better for both of us.

at that moment, i froze in the mid air,
refusing to believe that this was the guy i loved so much
refusing to accept the fact that you wanted to break up
everything else doesnt matter anymore

tears came rolling down, i was delusional,
depressed and hurt
dont you know that i cried so frequently every night
thinking of you
i think i'm having a depression
dont you just care anymore?

ironically enough, i enjoyed reading
your yesterday's messages compared to the others
that was the most heart to heart conversation
i ever have with you since we got separated
by distance
and now, looks like you separated yourself
from me altogether

the thought of suicide came back haunting me
i never got out from my depression i suppose
why must you do this to me?
you know i was not a very strong person
i break down easily
i got upset, i got mad,
but most of all, i got hurt

because of you, i got a depression
if my depression got worse due to no treatment
it would be because of you my dear