i know you treat me nice, but sometimes, when you got problems, you prefer to shut yourself off in your own world. i can only watch you helplessly from outside. i wanted to comfort you, but you pushed me aside. you only want to share your happiness but not your sadness or anger.

to be only there with you when you are in the right mood? that's not what i want.

linking negative thoughts to yourself only,
ONE OF THE FEW THINGS I DISCOVERED ABOUT YOU.

best date ever^^

we were taking shelter at the china bridge, and it was raining really heavily. it felt like standing at the deck of a ship during a storm, with splashes of rain water hitting us like little bullets. drenched, i just snuggle up closer to him trying to steal his warmth. such an angelic bliss, watching the rain drops onto the lake, perfect setting for a romantic movie.

when the rain subsides, we made our journey back to the hotel. splash splash splash.. my beautiful heels spoiled. splodge splodge splodge, into the mud they goes. instant decision to take off my heels and walk barefooted in the mud. first time walking barefooted in my date, how unladylike :D

linking rain with fun,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

everytime when we say want to go jogging, we end up resting our butt at one spot. thanks to me :D
but i really do prefer to be as close as possible to him rather than "jog" behind him (usually few metres left behind > <).. sitting at one spot, i would lean against him, looking up at the clear blue sky above (or cloudy) and the lush green scenery at the background. my heart at peace :)

consider this: even if i were to jog with him, usually i'll tayar pancit after 22m (figure given by him).. haha~

linking exercise with love,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

feeling really sick tat time, i dialed the number that i knew so well..
"hello? could you come and pick me now? i feel like eating.... got a flu here..."
and the next moment, a big black car glided past the hotel.. yea^^ my bunk face to the rescue~

bye frens^^ after jux an hour of working, i punched my card out. instantly i plopped into the car seat. "Hi uncle^^" to the big mr chan.. (in the heart: hi dear, to the younger mr chan) the big mr chan dropped us at the gate cafe.

and i ordered a lot of food..
1.mushroom soup with garlic bread
2.spaghetti
3.capuchinno

he jux ordered..
1. potato
2. big burger
3. ice lemon tea

basically my meal costs more than his, but he paid the bill (like usual, most of the time), and no questions asked :)

after eating, got an hour left, we walked under the gentle rain to a PC Fair. it was a nice walk, but i was wearing my ciplak high heels = = and i was jumping over the puddles of water there and here to avoid getting my heels spoiled again, how unladylike XD

and then we reached the destination, and we finished walking around the fair in 5 minutes. every step we took, people crammed brochures into our arms. colorful brochures~ (he took all those home to be as 'lapik' for his rubbish bins i think)

oh ya, his mum gave me an alice in the wonderland shirt^^ Original from disney~ imported~ (i hope his mum is trying to foster relationship with me.. hehe)

well, in the end of the day, my flu was still there.. holding tissue to my nose all day long XD uncomfortable but worth every moments with bunk face~

linking love with genuine care,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

cat episode

he knows i like cats. so he got another one from ipoh for me. now i have 2 cute cats. with no reproductive organs apparently. haha XD. poor cats cant do what they like to do at the roadside.

so one night, i put them in that kitten making position and snapped a pic of it. dont give me that stare. this is certainly NOT a commercial animal pornography. because of publicity reasons, i would not upload the pic here.

so on day, i showed him that pic and looked at his face for any reactions.

BLANK.

i asked him, you know wats this?

yea, biology chap 4. (with a smile)

THANK GOD he noes wat his 2 cats trying to do. i was actually amazed that he knows.. LOL. haha.. i like his smile. A LOT.

linking his smile and his spontaneous nature,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

HAPPY ENVIRONMENT (topic for my jpa interview)

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
wei
apa happy environment?

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
LOL
seriously

Miao says:
haha
mmg pun my topic happy environment

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
but i nvr heard HAPPY ENVIRONMENT
b4

Miao says:
YEA!!!!!!
we were all shock

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
super keng
lol

Miao says:
the boy next to me so funny his face
he was lk HUH??? aloud

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
LOLOLOLOL

Miao says:
cox he's the one who hav to ans first
tat time i still dreaming
i tot d question was specially for him oni

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
dey din gif u time 2 think?
i tot 2 mins or sumthg

Miao says:
not reali
ours was super spontan
its not even a group discussion

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
i can c
amazing

Miao says:
wat can discuss abt HAPPY ENVIRONMENT?

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
true
XD

Miao says:
weird topic
compared to others more mature topic

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
real sudden le

Miao says:
YA
all tat guy's fault
talking abt being comfortable in starbucks

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
apa ini
dun blame ppl

Miao says:
mmg pun la!

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
starbucks = happy meh?
i dun think so
den apa lu crap?
mcd?

Miao says:
sumthg abt m'sians living happily in racial unity
shudnt hav say tat
den they ask politicians vv happy meh?

* * * s u - e n * * * says:
lol
den u say yea?
politician alll bathin in money
not happie meh?
eik
u din say ur happie wen wif ur bunk face

Miao says:
ya hor
vv happy environment :)

food = love

sometimes i do stare at him eating his food. not staring intensely but yet noticeable enough. i find it funny at how he chews his food with the food half outside and half inside his mouth, especially chicken, when he tries to tear the meat free. XD. the food will just stick there, on his lips with the spoon or fork as support.

and then he would notice me staring. by the time i turn away, it's always too late.. haha.. he would ask me, "wan eat?", indicating the whatever piece of food stuck in his fork or spoon. at this point, i would usually smile and say NO. or maybe sometimes i'll just take the food, depending on my mood that time.

and then he would notice me looking at other food around. (actually i'm just staring dreamingly at nowhere, or trying to spot his reflection somewhere else where i don't have to directly stare at him) "you want you order-lah," that would be his usual reply.. and again i would say NO while smiling.

linking food with happiness and love,
One of the million things i love about him.

instant emotion

his girl? who's that, i wondered. shouldnt be any of my business anyway. but that thought still lingers in my mind.

wonder what the future holds for us. probably we will just forget each other in a few years time. or not.

oh well~ not that it matters much.

little heart's woes

i thought i would be happy if i receive a scholarship to study in singapore.

turns out not.

mum made a big fuss of it until i was just so FED UP..

she said she wont force me to choose, but right from the beginning i can feel that she already opted for singapore. oh well~

if u asked me the question much much earlier, i wouldnt have think twice and straight go to singapore. but then again, little tiny love things now held me aback =( certainly i do not mind not going to singapore but my mum seems SO enthusiastic about it, giving speeches to me how good how good the nanyang is compared to local.. blah blah blah..

but little heart says going to singapore would means letting go of my own personal unapproved interest. my dear bunk face? *cries*

i've really grown fond of him after about 3 months knowing him. it's just so hard to let go.. if i have been watching a drama of a girl in my situation, normally i'll laugh at her and wondered why does she even have to consider, heck, just straight go singapore if you have the opportunity!
but reality proves harder. little heart keep tugging at the strings between us.

asking myself, do i really want to go?

NO.

but is there any choice?

YES. but mum likes her daughter to graduate from a singapore university.

so what happens next?

*tear drops*