cat episode

my boyfriend just gave me cute white cat. the first question that popped into my mind is whether it's a male or female.

so i asked him. he said dunno.

i told him there's no organ to determine the gender. and so he laughed and replied is that how he should look when choosing soft toys next time: *he demonstrated this by turning the cat upside down and looking at where the organ should be*

LOL

one of the million things i love about him.

walking on the broken path under the rain,
she looked up to the misty sky above.
where dark clouds loomed high and mighty.

sad and crying, she let go of her umbrella,
instantly the rain hit her hard on her face,
accusing her of something that she regretted.

clutching onto a tattered piece of red paper,
she squinted at those words that
she had copied and written from somewhere.
those had truthfully came from her heart,
but somehow lay forgotten somewhere
in the tangles of time and memories.

under the rain,
her flimsy writing getting blurred.
a puff of wind blew the pieces of paper,
from her palm to where the wind will go

has it meant to end like this?
love where once ruled the heart gone with the wind
passion that was not completely ignited but put out
just before it begun

lifting her umbrella from the ground,
she turned back to where she belongs,
leaving those papers of memories behind,
maybe someday she will search for it
if nobody throws them away.

i dont know how hurt were you,
i dont know if it really matters,
i dont know if you still care,
you chose to bear a wall of silence.

morning rambles

he said he did not feel anything knowing about my relationship; not his business~

either he's lying or i'm really wrong about the whole thing.

i thought he had some feelings for me, but seems like it was just me thinking that way. how embarassing...

i still remember, there's this one day where he actuali takes me as his girlfren, and the great thing about it that it lasted only for a mere 24 hours. ya, i was dumped in a 1 day record. that reali pissed me off. check. and again, how embarassing.. dun u ever dare to ask for my hand again!!

on the other hand, maybe he didnt mean it tat way, and only a naive girl like me wud assume that he wans me to be his girlfren.. how embarassing again.. this whole thing is so embarassing..

check my heart. it's not broken, still intact and beating normally.
check my hand. it's in someone else's hand, warm with love.
check my eye. it's looking in someone else's face, shining with happiness.
check my lips. it's curving upwards as it greets someone else.
check my teeth. it's showing off their whiteness as laughter comes.
check my brain. i'm thinking about my dear. =)

my bunk face

paradise perfect!! i leaned against his body, sniffing his air of cologne? deodorant? i'm not so sure but it smells like him ;)
my hand in his hand, a bit damp but i'm not complaining, at least i can be sure it's his hand i'm holding onto when i close my eyes.
and wen i stand next to him, i am horribly shocked that i jux reached a little over his shoulders! i'm tat short??!! cool man, i like his height. if it's my fate to marry him, my kids will be super tall and slim like their dad. something to be happy about :)

he likes car, ya, he reads top gear, something i wudnt even dream of opening the magazine; and often he showed me any expensive cars tat glided in front of the hotel and named them, and seriously i cant catch up on what's he saying.. though the topic kinda bores me, but i like listening to his voice as he explains about that particular car

next to cars, he likes music.. trance / disco music to be exact.. not my type but i'm fine wif it.. at least he noes some other music lk classical ones, or some famous composers, i remembered i was awed that he can name a few piano composers that i fancy.

a bunk face by nature, tat's my dear. wen he smiles, his perfect row of white teeth shows. he jux nid to improve on his face complexion but tat's not my priority, kinda embarassing if ur male partner's face is smoother den urs. haha~ i can realli blog whole day about him but let's keep those lovely thoughts for another day. i got a lady gaga video downloaded waiting for me to watch :)

random thoughts

it's been so long since i really ponder on my thoughts.. kinda random nowadays, with mostly focused onto my dear bunkface :) had a share of happy n funny times.. wonder if it will really last till we grown up? honestly i dont reali think it will, a sad hard reality.

it was days ago since i last discovered that my old crush is in a relationship. shocked i was, i kept clicking the computer screen to see which girl that had captured my old crush's heart. curiosity is more than jealousy, ya, felt a little jealous actuali, cant explain why, maybe a part of our memories still stuck somewhr in me. i tried hard pushing the thoughts away, so i called my best fren.. she reminded me that i got someone else now, ya, that made me smiling back.. how cute my dear is :)

i owis thought, if old crush dinna go to any camps, who wud i end up wif? hav to remind myself that it doesnt matter now.. coz i got my dear bunk face; and it wudnt hav been fair for him if i kept thinkin back my old crush.. but still, it's hard to stop those thoughts from straying.. were close once, but now drifting apart.. do i miss him? cant deny tat fact completely, but still, i missed my dear jake more :) at least he tries to make me happy, n he doesnt hav to try much, cox jux by looking at his face makes me lauf so hard, wif tat bunk face of his, u noe..