never had a dream come true

history repeats itself. the last time it was the singapore polytechnic scholarship. and now it's jpa scholarship. as it turns out, i'm not one of the few lucky ones. and because of this, i become the object of scorn and distaste from my mum. everything i did is wrong wrong wrong.

why shit happens.

i hate my life part 1

oh well, it's clear that i'm not gonna get the damn scholarship from JPA. this sucks my life at home right now. mum's been giving me "the look" each time she heard someone else's smart little kid got the scholarship, blaming it on me that i chose Accounts course instead of the medicine/pharmacy she wanted. she wanted me to pursue in medicine/pharmacy or any science related, instead her stubborn daughter chose Accounts. and also telling me that i will regret one day for not taking up science subject.

wats wrong with accounts subject?? dont we need accountants at all?? is science subject tat high and mighty?

always at different ideas with my mum, one thing that she despise is having boyfriends at young age (i'm eighteen by the way).. as for me, i think having relationships is okay as long as you can handle it, without affecting your studies. all this while, i've been sneaking in and out from relationship, and my studies is still as tip top as before, or maybe my mum didnt think my results are good enough. oh well, nothing is good enough for her anyway.

accept it, i'm a product of failure.

OH MY GOD!!!
i was OMG-ing everywhere each time i looked at the little spiders lurking around the corner near my bed in my new home. yeah... here i am, in a little unknown town of Changlun.. far far away from my dear bunkface.

Oh my, the first few days are TERRIBLE!! i was really really homesick (reality: i missed my bunkface more than my home)

really cried for a few nights.. and when bunkface called me, i cried even more :(
i realised i was pampered by bunkface too much and now i cant live far away from him. it just felt so lost and alone. with all the chinese friends speaking mandarin, i got no one to talk with like my old friends. lone ranger i am.

orientation week is a torture. if you survived it, congrats :)

why was it a torture? we were given barely enough time to change and eat, and the best thing of all: my room is located at the highest floor, 3rd floor.. and poor me have to climb all the way up and down each time i want to get to my room. it doesnt help when the distance to all the places are like so far! about half km or slightly more if u consider the amount of stairs i have to climb.

but, like what i told you, if you survived the first week, the following week will be quite a breeze. i spent my time picking up spiders, webs, dust, etc. and i went exploring my block.. discovered the washing machine (finally!! ), a cyber cafe, dobby, nothing much.

and the day gets on better :) although bunkface is not with me technicallt, but he is in my heart and soul :) he will call me every night and that's the best time we can talk. another 5 more years before i can be that close to him like last time..

really missed those times we had together.. there's memory of us everywhere we go in taiping.. the hills, the lake garden, the swimming pool, all those restaurants high and low, and most important of all, the daily morning visits to his house :) thinking of these make me wanna cry.. ii shall treasure those bittersweet memories.

linking life with bunkface,
ONE OF THE MILLION THINGS I LOVE ABOUT HIM

it feels like today's the last time i will be ever that close to him. i drove to his house like usual, feels like i'm really getting used to this daily morning routine :)

and today starts off as usual.. reach his house, call out to his brother, ask the same question: ur bro wake up d ah? he wont answer, but run up straight to his room.. i will cheekily follow him behind to catch his bro(bunkface)sleeping...

wait, that's where today it makes a difference..

bunkface appeared at his room freshly out from the bathroom XD
with only a towel clad around his waist

my first instinct: SHOCKED
he smiled and ask why today i come wan?

LOL.. i dunno wat to do.. so i tell him to go put on clothes first.. haha

and now when i think back, i should have just pulled off the towel XD

chan says:
really ?

I say:
hahahahah
yea
sleeping lk pig XD

let me rewind wat happen in ur room today
i peeked into ur room
saw a figure in red sleeping in bed
facing the window
hidden under the blanket
kinda sexy
if take out the shirt n the blanket

den the figure turn over to his back
rub rub his eyes
for quite a long time

how cute
hahaha